I’ve decided I cannot deal with people that have low self-esteem. If you have not learned how to love yourself at the ripe old age of adulthood, then it’s time for you to invest in a therapist. I get that not every person was raised in a loving home with great parents. I am aware that some people were told that they were unattractive and have serious psychological problems because of it, but I feel like there are some people that don’t even want help.
If anything, it makes it hard for you to ever get truly close to anyone. You make the relationship completely and totally about you. You devour people. There aren’t many that want to (or can) constantly keep feeding your excessive appetite for compliments and praise.
Of course, I am just bitter because I’ve reached my breaking point with a certain person with low self-esteem. I was at a low point in my life where I was under the impression that my entire world was going to be completely swept from beneath my feet and this person who is supposed to be my friend wasn’t there for me until this person realized that I didn’t need them to be.
Never have I seen a person seek so much approval from someone who is completely down on their luck. “Please need me. Please want me. Please accept my love.” It was heartbreaking. I saw it, desperation, all throughout the body language. Any other day, I would have stopped and helped, but the fact that they only felt rejected because I didn’t was shameful.
I thank God for the reliable friends and the support system I do have because I know who I can trust and who I can’t. People can walk around with false titles and can think that they have my love, but the ones who really have it know it. I’ll only give it to the loyal and supportive. I’ll only give it to the ones that would never purposely try to hurt me. Just know, that I’d rather be alone than have someone who’s just using me in my life.